So my life has really changed...
I guess even forced change is better then nothing ever changing. In theory.
So last December my husband walked out, we got a divorce and at first I wanted him to come back to work on our marriage. I could not understand why he was doing this. I thought I loved him and wanted nothing more then for our family to remain whole... Then things starting changing I started changing, all the sudden my eyes were open for the first time in almost 7 years. I started to see everything, things I didn't want to see and then things started to fall into place. I started to realize my life was nothing like I had intended it to be. I mean I always wanted to be a mother and a wife, ( just not to a man that made me feel invisible) I love my kids more than anything and would not change a thing about any of what I have gone through to be where I am. I am the proud mother of four amazing, smart and talented children that make life so much fun.
I have began to dream again, to feel like I am enough and that nothing is going to stop me from reaching for my dreams. I had a AHA moment in October of last year and in that moment I got closer to God then I have ever been in my life. It truly changed who I am and who I will be forever. God is my rock and I pray now more then I have ever prayed. I feel like God wants me to share my story and to be a voice for those of you that haven't found yours yet.. The struggle is real and I am here to share that things can get better. So in order for me to truly tell my story I will have to give more of a back story.
I am not sure how things will grow but I am going to work every day to share my story. Things are not always easy and that is a good thing, our struggles help us to grow as a person to change and make better choices.
